I looked at food in an unbalanced way for a long time; I either couldn’t eat food that I really liked because it was unhealthy or I couldn’t enjoy the food I needed to eat because it tasted gross.
I wanted to be healthy, but I felt I had to stomach the most disgusting meals in order to get to where I needed to be- health wise. Whenever I tried going for the healthy food, it wouldn’t take long till I eventually called it quits with whatever healthy challenge I was trying to take on.
For a long time I was addicted to greasy, fat food. Fried zucchini was (and still kinda is) my addiction. Pepsi replaced water, and I had it almost every day. No doubt, junk food was my life.
While I had a great metabolism, I also had plenty of headaches, mood swings, and little energy to get me through the day. I was almost always sleepy, and I felt light headed more times than I could count.
Since I wrestled with low self-esteem and was highly insecure, taking care of my health didn’t really seem to be of importance to me. I wanted to be healthy, but I didn’t care to give up the junk food either.
However, when I began a relationship with God, things began to change. Since I knew my life with God would be different than my previous life without him, I wanted to start making positive changes… my health being one of them.
Plus, it was biblical.
Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own,
– 1 Corinthians 6:19
It was difficult at first, I’ll tell you that.
My taste buds had adjusted to junk food and so, naturally, I found it difficult to desire healthy foods… until I realized that I didn’t have to limit myself to what I thought I should like.
I began playing with food. And by playing, I mean experimenting.
I began to make salads out of spinach and added things I knew I liked to give my meal a delicious flavor.
As I continued experimenting to see what I did and did not like, I also began limiting my junk food intake.
I learned to be gentle with myself whenever I gave into temptation and bought a piece of food that I’d been trying to quit. I’d start over and continue on my journey.
I often felt greatly discouraged; progress seemed slow. The process of quitting unhealthy food was long, and sometimes painful.
The thought of giving up sweets and fried foods seemed more like torture rather than a blessing. And sometimes I’d give up eating healthy food for months.
All of this took time, discipline, grace, love, and a new mindset.
Fast forward 5 years since I started taking my health serious…
I’m not a health freak. I have my ups and downs still, but I’m in a better place. I’ve also learned to be balanced with my choice of food.
While I don’t consume junk food on a regular basis as I once did, I don’t go hard on myself for enjoying a burger every so often.
I still enjoy my coffee, I take a sip of Pepsi over ice every so often, and I still love getting myself chocolate ice cream. I am not obsessed with fried zucchini as I once was (mainly because I can only consume a certain portion every so often), but I still enjoy a taste every other week if I’m in the mood for it.
I also enjoy eating avocados, red onions, garlic, natural juices, salmon, jasmine rice, and so many other healthy foods I never knew I’d like so much.
My body has gotten healthier over the years. It tells me when it doesn’t like a certain food, and alerts me when I’ve had too much sugar; I pay closer attention to the condition of it more than I did before.
While I’m still learning what I do or do not like, and what I’d rather give up for the sake of my health, I’m also learning to ENJOY my food.
“Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.”
I Corinthians 10:31
I’d been taught to look at my food as something that was not really ever meant to be enjoyed. I often ate food that I hated (like pancakes) only because it was what I’d been taught to eat, and told, in a way, to enjoy.
While I stay cautious of what I put in my body on a regular basis, I do stay open to trying food that not only is good for me, but is also delicious.
Today… I am thankful for food. I love food. I enjoy food.